Author: Mama Tiff

Today felt like an especially hard day. I told Tom though that I’m grateful we’re at least to the point that it feels like we’re not taking more steps backward than we are forward. … Read More >December 20, 2020 – Some days are just hard

When all of this happened, I couldn’t help but think that for the rest of our lives, the holidays would be filled with sadness and heartache because it’s when we lost our angel boy. But over the past couple weeks, I’ve been working on changing my perspective and in many ways, I’ve come to realize that Christmas is exactly where I want to be. … Read More >December 18, 2020 – My Christmas perspective

Well it’s been one month since we lost our angel Benny. It’s been full of what’s felt like the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Honestly, I’m not entirely sure how we made it through. But we have and we are. I’m so grateful for that. … Read More >December 16, 2020 – One month

I trust that things will get better. Not that earthly life without Benny is better, because I don’t believe that. But I do believe, with everything in me, that our Benny is still very much part of our eternal family and that he can help us become better, too. … Read More >December 15, 2020 – Better again

Mondays are tricky days for me now. I find myself not wanting to go to bed on Sunday nights because I’m afraid of what Monday morning may bring. … Read More >December 14, 2020 – Mondays

The days seem to get a little easier, and then all of a sudden they get harder. But, when the Lord sees fit to provide us an opportunity for growth (which typically manifests in a really difficult trial), I believe He also provides us reminders that He is there and that He loves us. … Read More >December 13, 2020 – Trusting the Lord…still

I’ve been searching for light ever since Benny passed away. I’m drawn to light that reminds me of him. I was hoping we could find a way to somehow light our home this holiday season, but it felt like only a wish. … Read More >Lights and a silent prayer

I’ve realized in the last few days that while I feel like overall I am processing my grief and coping fairly well (all things considered), there’s still a part of me that lives in denial. Denial that my Benny is actually gone. … Read More >December 11, 2020 – Denial

We often hear that “comparison is the thief of joy.” I know I’ve felt that in my life. But today I’ve been thinking about how comparison may also be the thief of sadness, and that isn’t a good thing either. … Read More >December 10, 2020 – Comparison is the thief of sadness

Today would have marked our angel boy’s six month “birthday.” I never want to forget my sweet boy or what he means to our family. But, I do recognize that I can’t live in the pain forever. … Read More >December 9, 2020 – The missing doesn’t have to hurt