Author: Mama Tiff

Today I was full of regret. It’s amazing how the loss of a loved one brings up such feelings of regret. … Read More >December 8, 2020 – Happiness and regrets

After a lot of ups and downs, I realized this morning that I need to let it go…but not necessarily in the way I expected. … Read More >December 6, 2020 – Let it go

Whether it be from a tiny coin or a tiny boy, our lives are full of ripples. We may not notice them, but if we do, it can be pretty awesome. … Read More >December 5, 2020 – Ripples

I’m nervous to go home tomorrow. I don’t know what I’ll feel. It could be painful. Or it could be fine. I just don’t know. … Read More >December 4, 2020 – A home where Benny was loved

Anyone who knows me knows just how much I love sunsets, and today I was reminded that I can trust in what I believe of eternal families in the same way I trust in sunsets. … Read More >December 3, 2020 – Rise and set and then rise again

Joy. A concept that seems to be so allusive to me these days. I want to have joy. I’ve heard that it’s possible to have joy during trying circumstances. But I just don’t know how. … Read More >December 2, 2020 – Finding joy

Today my Benny insights came in two ways – during a walk (well, a rather intense hike up a mountain) and during my gospel study. … Read More >December 1, 2020 – One step at a time

Today was a tough day. And a good day. And an up and down day. Goodness, most days lately have seemed that way. … Read More >November 30, 2020 – “Take care of Isaac and Zoey”

There were so many cactus plants along our walk today. As I was processing through all my thoughts and emotions, at one point it was like I heard my sweet Benny saying, “Mom, you’re just like these cactus plants.” … Read More >November 29, 2020 – Just like the cactus

Benny would want me to be happy. He doesn’t want me to forget him, but he doesn’t want me to remain in mourning forever. My angel boy would want me to figure out a way to always remember him and be happy — somehow at the same time. … Read More >November 28, 2020 – “If I’m happy, I feel like I’ve lost you”