Year: 2021

Today I realized something that I don’t think I’ve fully processed since Benny passed away. I realized I haven’t forgiven myself for Benny’s loss. … Read More >March 21, 2021 – Forgiveness

Over the past four months (and I can hardly believe it’s been four months today since our angel boy went to heaven), the plants that people gave us when he passed away have waned a bit. … Read More >March 16, 2021 – Don’t give up

It’s amazing the roller coaster of emotions that come even when I feel like otherwise I’m doing okay. I’m grateful that when the emotions come (especially the really difficult ones) I’m starting to recognize the grief behind them and process through it in manageable ways. … Read More >March 8, 2021 – Almost

One thing I’ve been thinking about lately is the idea of tests. I’ve wondered if, in a weird way, losing Benny was a “midterm” in my life. … Read More >March 2, 2021 – Tests

Things have been going pretty well for us lately. It’s been three and a half months now, and it truly is amazing what time has done. … Read More >February 27, 2021 – The diamond rule

I’ve been thinking so much about angels lately. I’m so grateful to feel like I have a personal angel in my sweet Benny. … Read More >February 22, 2021 – Angels

Yesterday was our “family’s birthday” (our anniversary) so we decided to celebrate at the happiest place on earth – Disney World! It was such a fun day and the picture we took when we first entered the park was something a few years ago I could only have dreamed of. … Read More >February 18, 2021 – The happiest place on earth

I know this is something I’ve posted about before, but it’s something that’s been on my mind so much and which I feel so drawn to. I keep coming across the concept of looking up to see the miracle, and I don’t think it’s a coincidence. … Read More >February 13, 2021 – Looking up to see the miracles

Today I saw an ambulance and fire truck speeding down the road, sirens blaring, and I realized in that moment the feelings I now associate with ambulances, fire trucks, sirens, and lights. It took me right back to the morning we lost Benny. … Read More >February 9, 2021 – “Dear God, please help them”

I’ve realized through all of this not to wait for anything. There’s certainly no better time than today to capture all the moments we can and enjoy every precious minute we have with our loved ones. I’m so grateful for how my angel boy continues to remind me of that. … Read More >February 2, 2021 – Can’t wait-ers and should have-rs