Year: 2021

The last couple days have definitely been filled with lots of ups and downs for some reason, but overall a really sweet and tender spirit as I’ve been able to think and talk about my angel boy in a few different ways. … Read More >May 8, 2021 – Hallelujah

Today was such a beautiful day outside. I love the sunshine and warmth and being outside definitely helps me feel close to my angel boy. … Read More >May 1, 2021 – The Flowering Pear tree

Today marks a milestone that both Tom and I have been dreading… We’ve now been without Benny longer than we had him during his short little life. … Read More >April 24, 2021 – Every day closer

I think I want another baby. It’s hard for me to admit, but I do. Lately I’ve really been wanting another baby. … Read More >April 20, 2021 – Holding to the rod

Today I had two experiences that gave me some perspective in this process of loss and grief, both of which came through my sweet baby Isaac. I’m so grateful to be his mama and for all the ways he is teaching me in this parenting journey. … Read More >April 18, 2021 – Getting to the roots

For some reason, I scare really easy. And recently, the fear seems to have gotten worse. … Read More >April 13, 2021 – All we have to do is ask

This weekend I judged a dance competition, and as I was driving home and “talking” with my Benny, I realized something. I’m so grateful for second chances. … Read More >April 10, 2021 – Second chances

This weekend we were in Burley to spend the holiday with Tom’s mom. It was a really special weekend. … Read More >April 6, 2021 – “He’s got the little bitty baby in His hands” this Easter

As humans, I think we all have this innate need and desire to feel remembered. To know that we’re not forgotten. Especially during our most difficult trials. … Read More >March 31, 2021 – I am not forgotten

We finally received Benny’s death certificate. It’s made me realize that sometimes in life, there are questions we don’t get answers to. … Read More >March 23, 2021 – Questions without answers