Today marks a milestone that both Tom and I have been dreading…
We’ve now been without Benny longer than we had him during his short little life.
I knew this day was coming. And I knew it would be hard.
I spent a lot of time alone today, processing the gravity of this day and the time that’s passed. And really, I wanted to spend quiet time where I could feel and hear my angel boy.
As I told Benny how much I missed him and how sad I was that we were getting further and further from the time when we were with each other, I felt such a distinct peace come over me that I know was him figuratively wrapping his heavenly arms around me in comfort. He reminded me that even though each day that passes takes me further from when I was with him last, it also brings me one day closer to when I get to be with him again.
Wow. Talk about a perspective change.
It was just what my mama heart needed today.
I’m so grateful for my angel boy and how he watches over me and somehow knows just what I need to get through the difficult moments.
Instead of looking at the passing days as moments without Benny and time taking us further from being with him in the past, I can look forward to the future and see time as taking us closer to when we can be with him again. That’s a much sweeter perspective for my heart, and a lesson that I think can actually apply in so many situations in life.
I’m grateful for the knowledge I have that I will see my angel boy again. I’m grateful he continues to be there for me when I need him. I’m grateful to be able to change my perspective and think about things in a new and more positive way, even on the toughest of days.
Every day closer. I can’t wait until I see my boy again.
