Month: January 2021

I’ve had so many people ask me how I’m doing. Especially lately. Honestly, I’m never quite sure what to say… … Read More >January 31, 2021 – My hope

I want to be the best mama I can, and to me, a big part of that is being present with my babies and not being distracted when they’re around. I only have so many days, years, and moments with them as they grow up, and I want to make the most of it. … Read More >January 27, 2021 – A sunrise and a reminder

Last night was hard. Goodness, some nights are like that I’ve found. We’ve actually been doing pretty well, but every now and again it all just seems to come back. … Read More >January 26, 2021 – Paradise

This week has been kind of a hard one. Filled with good moments as well, but for some reason it’s had its share of tough moments. Thankfully though, through each I’ve been able to feel my sweet boy close as he’s reminded me that I don’t have to face the struggles alone and that I can somehow still feel joy and peace. … Read More >January 24, 2021 – Rainbows, clouds, and boxes

Recently I found this watercolor print and absolutely fell in love with it. This is titled “He Leaveth the Ninety and Nine” and it’s amazing how certain artwork just speaks to your heart. … Read More >January 19, 2021 – “He Leaveth the Ninety and Nine”

Today was the funeral of the wonderful woman in our ward who passed away a couple weeks ago. She was so wonderful to help, from her bedside, with Benny’s memorial service, and I saw today as my unique opportunity to quite literally return the favor. … Read More >January 16, 2021 – Returning the favor

Light. I’ve been so drawn to light ever since Benny passed away. It reminds me of him. It reminds me of our Savior, who I believe Benny is with. I’ve been looking for it everywhere in my life to keep Benny’s memory alive and to fill our lives with its goodness. I’m so grateful for light. … Read More >January 13, 2021 – Fire and Light

There are so many emotions associated with this whole experience of losing our angel boy. I’ve never really been a worrier, but this experience has definitely changed me a bit in that regard. Not just generally, but it’s in interesting ways that are very specific to losing Benny. … Read More >January 10, 2020 – Worrying…and hope

Our sweet Benny would have been seven months old today. It’s sad to not be watching him grow up, but we’re grateful we still feel him close. We’re also grateful for the miracles and tender mercies that continue to come our way, a big one of which we experienced today. … Read More >January 9, 2021 – “I Will Bring You up Again out of the Depths”

Today we received the video from the funeral home of Benny’s memorial service. We wanted to post it here to reflect that specific aspect of this experience, as well as for any family members or friends who may not have been able to participate with us that day. … Read More >Benny’s Memorial Service